You give such a clear insight into what you are going through, Lisa, which I believe greatly benefits us as readers. Thank you for being willing to share, as painful as it is.
My brother passed away on July 13th. The last month when people ask me how I am doing the first thing I talk about is "the fog". You described it so perfectly. Just when I think it is clearing it envelopes me again and I lose time and can't remember anything. I am so sorry for your losses. Thank you for sharing with us, your insight and words have helped me.
You wrote that it's enough that you're getting out of bed each day - I couldn't agree more. I'm probably not going to explain this right but grief to me seems so unfair, as if the missing of your Noah and Aaron isn't enough, on top of that you have to deal with as you say, your new existance and the exhaustion of 'working out' the grief that impacts on every move that your making in your day to day life.
Hi. I can relate to the 'new normal'. When my husband walked out on us I faced this same heartache. My doctor said it was like a death, the death of our family as I knew it and that I would go through the normal grieving process. 11 years on I still find myself pondering what could've been, but the fog has lifted and my normal is now my life with my kids, my partner, my ex and my friends. You are doing an amazing job and what might feel normal today won't feel normal tomorrow.
Hello,I have followed your blog for a while now and never left a comment. Your post reminded me of another beautiful article I read on a blog written by a woman who lost her 15 month old daughter. She said that this article really helped her to heal. I hope that it can give you some perspective too.http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2006/Feb-26-Sun-2006/living/5987837.html
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